helping vs being taking advantage of
I love to help people. Well, there are exceptions in some cases, but if for a good cause usually you will see me lend a helping hand.
However, sometimes I get reluctant to help because I always feel that I am being taken advantaged of. We have a project, and I help out by offering my house as a meeting place. In the end, who dirties the place? Them. Who cleans up the place? Me. I have a printer. Who asks for my help? Who does all the printing? Me. We have a deadline. Who remembers it? No one. Who ends up rushing it out? Me. I have money? Who ends up paying for everything? Me. Who never returns the money, thinking that I don't remember? Them.
I guess that is why there are less and less helpful people in the world. That is because everyone is selfish and can only think about themselves. They laze around and shove other people the work. Yes, just because I am quite well-off, I have a car, I have my own room, I have computer and a printer, that is not an excuse to let me do all the work!!!
Sometimes I get mad, I lose my temper, I cry. But my mother always tells me that I cannot blame anyone else, because I am the 'helpful' one who agrees to do all that crap.
I am willing to help people. I just do not want to be taken advantage of. There is a fine line between HELPING and BEING TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF. I hate the latter. Luckily, I have learnt my lesson. That is to share the responsibility. If its a group work, I will do my part and my part only. If the other does not do her work, fine, its her grades as well. I would rather get a mark we both deserved than to share my good marks with her (that will be so undeserving for the lazy bean).
ASSUME
ASSUME. A curious word. My primary school science teacher once taught me what it really stands for. ASSUME= ASS+U+ME. From them on, I decided not to assume too much.
Assuming is the road to making mistakes actually. I think people assume too much. Well, I myself also assume, but I am trying to stop it. I assume people will not read my blog so I do not update it frequently (but come to think of it, it is true). I assume that I will have a nice birthday, just to realise my council camp falls on the exact same day.
Why do people assume? Maybe because they really have nothing else better to do, or are too lazy. That is why rumours start as well.
I had this friend in primary school. We had a lot of common interests, such as drawing and reading. So we started off as good friends and sat next to each other. However, over time, I noticed her personality began to change. She became boastful, irritating, egoistic, and self-centred. We spoke less and less, til our conversation topics only revolved around school homework when I had to copy hers and vice versa. But then everyone just assumed that we were best friends when we were not even close! Does sitting beside each other equal best friends? I don't think so. Thus, I felt very irritated when people will come up to me and talk about her as my 'best friend' and I have to correct them every time.
Yes so my message to all you people (whoever who is bored enough to read my LA blog. yes you!) stop assuming! Think before you act/speak/move/anything!
mistakes
MISTAKES.
People make them. Regret them. Hate them.
Forgive them. Learn from them.
Today I made a horrible mistake.
During assembly today my CCA was invited to put up an item. However, due to complicated technology, the AV system in the school's General Office was unable to read our music CD (yes, our CD was burnt). This resulted in a long delay, embarrassment to my CCA mates, and worst of all a very angry teacher.
Yes, I admit, I was at fault, I made the mistake. I did not check the CD with the AV system beforehand. The worst thing was not embarrassing myself, but it was to see the black faces of teachers, and the irritated looks by my own CCA mates. In other words, the dissapointment I have caused others.
It is during these kind of times when I want to drown myself or fling myself out of the window. The dumb mistake can't seem to get out of my mind, and I force myself to be occupied with work so that the horrid memories of that fateful mistake will not keep replaying in my mind.
I guess I cannot blame anyone for blaming me, or for looking down on me. But sometimes, I wish that the world can open their eyes, and see that I am only a 15 year old teenager. I am still growing, and learning through my mistakes. (Honestly, how do you learn if you do not make mistakes?). Everyone makes mistakes. It is the matter of whether the world is willing to forgive his/her mistake...
It may seem that I am making up excuses. No, I'm not. But in a way I am trying to comfort myself so that at least I can have a good sleep tonight, while i await the day where my teacher and I will have 'the talk'.
I am only 15 (or at least I will be in 2 weeks time). Please just grab my shoes and run around in them for a while, its not easy to be me. It is not easy to be anybody. EVERYONE MAKES MISTAKES. FORGIVE, FORGET, MOVE ON ALREADY!
