love, pink angel

mistakes

MISTAKES.
People make them. Regret them. Hate them.
Forgive them. Learn from them.

Today I made a horrible mistake.
During assembly today my CCA was invited to put up an item. However, due to complicated technology, the AV system in the school's General Office was unable to read our music CD (yes, our CD was burnt). This resulted in a long delay, embarrassment to my CCA mates, and worst of all a very angry teacher.
Yes, I admit, I was at fault, I made the mistake. I did not check the CD with the AV system beforehand. The worst thing was not embarrassing myself, but it was to see the black faces of teachers, and the irritated looks by my own CCA mates. In other words, the dissapointment I have caused others.
It is during these kind of times when I want to drown myself or fling myself out of the window. The dumb mistake can't seem to get out of my mind, and I force myself to be occupied with work so that the horrid memories of that fateful mistake will not keep replaying in my mind.
I guess I cannot blame anyone for blaming me, or for looking down on me. But sometimes, I wish that the world can open their eyes, and see that I am only a 15 year old teenager. I am still growing, and learning through my mistakes. (Honestly, how do you learn if you do not make mistakes?). Everyone makes mistakes. It is the matter of whether the world is willing to forgive his/her mistake...
It may seem that I am making up excuses. No, I'm not. But in a way I am trying to comfort myself so that at least I can have a good sleep tonight, while i await the day where my teacher and I will have 'the talk'.
I am only 15 (or at least I will be in 2 weeks time). Please just grab my shoes and run around in them for a while, its not easy to be me. It is not easy to be anybody. EVERYONE MAKES MISTAKES. FORGIVE, FORGET, MOVE ON ALREADY!

posted by eileen @ 7:08 AM